DRN:
I felt shame about enjoying my sexuality. I read through some website and its a psychological need. A very basic need. An important need.
But I realize that I have always felt shame over my body and how I feel.
The root of that shame:
1. Dad - molested
2. Ivan - feeling my body was used by him. Before marriage, he was so into physical and then immediately after marriage, he totally lost interest in having intimate and physical. What I imagine about our physical relationship was not at all. He was no longer interested. In fact, we only have sex once a week as a newlywed. I was not desirable to him anymore.
I felt shame because I was not loved for me but my body. I felt used.
I also didn't feel appreciated.
I felt good after the DRN.
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