[2:19 pm, 18/12/2020] Christina Goh: God gave my children and allowed my husband to be my ministry.
At 21 years old, God told me that I will go to the Nations. Only during my mid 40s I actually started my ministry. Infact, during that period of waiting, I thought God forgot or the Prophetess is a false one. Throughout that time, most of my ‘ministry’ and training revolved around my children and husband. My husband was my biggest “Teacher/Trainer”. The whole time, I was wanting to go to the Nations and minister. But, the whole time I was in training to minister, through my children and husband. Just like David was in training with the sheeps.
I had idols in my heart and various trauma since childhood that never surfaced and would never be healed if I had not gone through 25 years of training. I heard that Jesus was trained for 33 years and had 3 years of ministry. Wow. Who am I to complain about my training??
A few months ago, the Lord said that my assignment with my family is completed. I didn’t really understand. And then I understood. I was given ONE assignment for 25 years. I stayed faithful, loyal, sometimes obedient, sometimes not, often questioning “why”, often confused, often feeling loss, depressed, sad, lonely, sometimes yielded and surrendered, sometimes not, but majority was hard. Because I ‘graduated’ with flying colors and honors, He is elevating me to my next assignment. Without the completion of this assignment, in accordance to His standards, I will not be able to carry the humility, anointing of healing and presence of God. Why humility? Often, I felt I had NOTHING to offer or give. I felt so broken that there was no one and nothing that could ‘repair’ me like God. But He was the only ONE that could restore me and make me new. (even more beautiful like Kintsugi).
My “training/ministry” took me to where I am today (If given a choice, I would not willingly go through it again!). Without it, I would not be in this place to ‘deliver’, be a ‘safe place’, compassionate, hungry for God, a pure bride, strong inner strength, desire to help others, go to the Nations, AND be entrusted with such beautiful women (His bride) like all of you. You are all precious women in training. None of your pain have been wasted whether its 1 year or 55 years. You have been in a purification, beautification just like Esther was before she became Queen Esther, perfect for her King.
God can use any situation for your training and purification. Sometimes its husband, sometimes its children, sometimes is tragedy, trauma, etc.
God is exposing our idols in our hearts, for His glory. So, arise Daughters! Arise Brides!
Isaiah 43:18-19 (NIV)
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“Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.
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See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.
[2:24 pm, 18/12/2020] Christina Goh: The Lord actually told me that without me, my husband would have been "loss". It took so much effort to 'minister' to my husband that now I am so super saint patient. Haiyo. You all with husbands will know. How much of patience it requires.
My husband is also His son 😩 So, He is probably killing 2 birds with a stone. Keep my husband save and training me at the same time.
[2:26 pm, 18/12/2020] Christina Goh: Honestly, initially I was quite upset with God because I felt that He had favoritism towards my husband. But today, I understand that it's a double-edged sword.
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