8 Dec 2020, Tuesday, 11.00pm. Jesus Passion

 

8 Dec 2020, Tuesday, 11.00pm. Jesus Passion

 10.30pm - 2.30am

I have been soaking in His presence.

I laid down on the bed to do Soaking and I felt peace and lightness.

Then I began to see Jesus kissing me. He was lying down on the right. And then when I turned, He sat beside me and started to kiss my forehead and my hands. When I sat down, He started to kiss my back.

I tried to distract by saying that I want a soul mate in heaven. I repented because I know that was not good to be distracted while He was doing that. But it was because I didnt know how to respond... I begin to speak to Him.

Me: Is that OK to feel like that? Is that you?

Jesus: Yes, I am showing you my Passion. Like what you asked. I am showing you the passion that I have for you.

I am worthy?

J - Yes you are worthy

C - You are kissing me and loving on me.

I am worthy to be loved.

Yes you are worthy to be loved

The time that I was touched, it was what they could get from me. Not what they can give to me.

I love you Baby. I love you for who you are. I dont NEEd anything from you. I want to shower my love and passion on you. yes I am passionate about you. I want to show you. 

I have never felt worthy Nobody has shown me that I was worthy to be loved. My parents no. My husband no. My children sometimes.  I have been rejected those people closes to me. 

I need more of your passion, my life has been so void of passion. I stuffed my emotions, my hopes, my real self, I have not been able to come alive because, I feel that I have losed it. I have forgotten to be alive. I have lived in fear. Lack of hope. Lack of passion. Lack of liveliness. Because I have been judged, suppressed, oppressed, ... I didnt even realized I suppressed and controlled I was. 

I dare not speak my heart opinion or mind. I have been walking on egg shells, for so long.I have had to carefully think about my words and not been able to speak my heart at all. 

i am going to speak affirmation to you.

I love you, I have always loved you. I will be kind to you and never mean. Lovingly yours, forever committed to you. You are the pone person I am looking at. I am your bridegroom King. And you are my Bride. I have commited myself to you.. to love you, to hold you, to kiss you, to affectionately hold you, all the days of your life. I will never leave you, I will be here for you always. All the time, I will choose. I will choose you again and again. Stay with me. Be here with me. I am enlarging your heart so that you can take more o fme. I am going to love you so fully and completely that you wont even remember the pain of the past.

I will make you Queen. You are my Queen

Help me to remember this tender moments with you.

You captivate my heart. You handle my heart with so much of gentleness. I can see you holding it gently in your hands, my heart. I can feel you inside of me.

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